Tuesday, February 07, 2006

And I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand, when everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am

I:
- got inspired to do another one of these cos fil did one and cos its been a while
- am currently drinking a rather average glass of Australian cabernet sauvignon and loving it
- have just been talking to G-wizzle on google talk
- am unapologetically a feminist
- am in love with the idea of someone rather than an actual person
- have a broken television
- can tie a knot in a cherry stalk with my tongue
- go home in 98 sleeps
- had a lovely Waitangi Day, thanks for asking
- have invited some friends in Australia to go to NZ for my birthday party in May
- really hope they can make it
- am going to the dentist again tomorrow for another round of fillings
- drink an insane amount of water
- think the water in the fine state of New York is complete arse
- would like to go to Canada
- want a puppy
- have two piercings that are not on my ears
- have more freckles than anyone in the world ever
- am so completely shit with money its beyond funny
- am in dire need of a chiropractor
- have 3 months 1 week and 5 days left of my twenties
- sometimes forget just how good I've got it
- will tell people that I don't have any grandparents even though my father's mother is still alive
- have broken my nose, two ribs, two fingers and a tiny wee bone in my foot
- have moved beyond hypochondria to pure alarmism: if I sneeze its not the flu, its ebola
- have on/in my bed two pillows red sheets a red tartan duvet a teddy bear a tiger called Raji and a blue and yellow cushion shaped like a flower
- am probably too old to have stuffed toys in my bed
- am jealous of people in relationships
- would do most of it exactly the same again if I had the chance. Most of it.
- want to be beautiful
- could probably kick your arse
- have a wee fat tummy
- have a tendancy to judge people on a single action although I know thats an inaccurate way of ascertaining a person's character and would not want to be judged on a single action of my own
- wish I could believe in something
- never get sick of hearing Tori Amos sing "Crucify"
- usually have a small number of real life friends
- missed my best friend's 30th the other day because I was here and she was there
- think David Duchovny is hot hot hot
- once had a cat called Special Agent Dana Scully
- once shared a cat with my best friend that was called Indiana Jones
- secretly laughed every time Chad called him "Junior" in the manner of Sean Connery in Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
- should probably be in bed right now
- think that Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds' record "Let Love In" is fantastic shagging music
- have really long legs
- miss my sister's kids so much sometimes it physically hurts
- have one of those exercise balls I really don't use enough
- sometimes think I'm mildly retarded
- see music in colour
- once stayed out so late after work my mum called the police because I forgot to call home and say where I was and still feel bad about it because my mum and my sister were so worried they thought I was dead or worse
- was a bridesmaid once in 2000 and no longer see the bride because I have major reservations about her character and not just from one incident from many over time and sometimes I feel bad about that because I heard that she had a baby that died and I think perhaps a better person than me would have called her even though it doesn't change the things about her character I objected to
- think perhaps I have gone on too long
- am suspicious that the university are going to figure me out and take back the money they give me and my scholarship because it was all a terrible mistake and there is someone far more deserving out there who went to Harvard or Yale or something and has a gazillion degrees with a GPA of 4.0 since the day before they were born and not little old me who got a mere Merit for my MA not even a Distinction and has a GPA that would make grown men cry
- wish that Netflix would get season 2 of Black Books
- can't figure out how to change the default email on my laptop to gmail
- am happy its snowing
- bid you goodnight